March 21st, 2014

I like pretty things

mid way

There has been so many screenings. I pretty much went from hardly going to the doctor to multiple doctor visits a month.
We are set on a home birth, however we did also take a bunch of the "optional screenings" and did that through an ob/gyn.

I've been tested for a million stds, including ones I've never heard of.

I've been speculumed twice.

My boobs have been massaged repeatedly.

My urine taken twice.

Thyroid checked.

The baby has been looked at through ultrasound and my blood work.

It's a LOT of stuff. And I'm only midway through. It's hard not to be anxious when there are so many tests to run. And you can't see the baby.

I'm pretty anxiety proned, so it has been a lesson in patience and letting go and trusting that my body knows what it's doing.

It's actually pretty hillarious that we're set on a home birth since an OCD person like me would probably be more hospital based. But both me and husband are actually pretty hippie in our views of western medicine.

I don't want to get into a debate about home births (since my Facebook thread turned a little bit into that.) I had posted asking people with home birth experiences to share. And people not into home birth started opining and stuff. But it was a good post because a lot of people posted or PMed me with their home birth experiences. I was surprised at how many people have done it since in the US, less then 1% of people do home births.

Basically, I think the reason home births are safer now is because they only take low risk pregnancies. They turn away high blood pressure women, or if your weight is too high. Or if certain blood work had not turned out normal. Also, the midwives show up with oxygen, pitocin, and other things that are just in case.

Also if the baby is earlier then 36 weeks it's straight to the hospital with you. Which worries me since 3 of my friends who gave birth recently were earlier then that.

But again... letting go. If the baby and my body cooperates, we'll have a home birth. Otherwise, it's a ride to the hospital.

I am thankful and happy that I'm pregnant. I'm very grateful that we are in week 20 now, midway through! And things are normal.

When my mind quiets down, I'm definitely filled with wonder at this strange and miraculous process that women before me have gone through.