August 17th, 2014

I like pretty things

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i'm trying to lower my dosage of the narcotics, but sometimes i over do it and wake up in pain. but i'm tired of being in a brain fog.

so basically most of what i'm doing these days are: pumping and breast feeding. it's amazing how hard that is. i've had really strong women check on me to make sure i'm okay and that "it gets better".

andy is doing everything else. he changes diapers, soothes the baby, supplement the baby with formula, clean. though his idea of cleanliness and my idea of cleanliness differ. he has been so supportive. the only time we yell at each other is over the breast feeding. my nipples are sore and we're doing so much to it. and i'm just tired.

andy's parents have been making sure we're fed everyday. which is so nice.

i really hope by next week i can be recovered.

oh, i also spend a lot of time staring at the baby. she is so precious.