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all, thanks for the support. i'm amazed at the amount of support i've gotten so far.

i'm taking today off. my manager is being so nice about it.

when i was young, i would laugh at people who spent thousands of dollars on animals, agreeing that they should spend it on people instead.

but right now i feel so bereft. even though he was just a cat.

he was constantly around. he liked to be where people are. right now, he would have meowed outside my room, wanting to come in. i feel like he should just be around. it was so sudden.

people said he was just like a dog. he even licks me often. people who weren't cat people reluctantly liked him.
i think that cats who were brought up well, socialized well, turn out to be very loving and loyal. of course, ragdolls were a special breed. they would go limp when you pick them up, and even strangers could pick him up and cuddle him.

he was my companion. i miss him terribly.

my roommate's cat isn't even in the house the last few days.

the house feels so empty.

i've a cat-sized hole.

i'm looking at getting another cat already. i'm not really sure what the protocol is on getting another cat after one just died. but i feel really cat-less right now. i want another ragdoll. but considering that the other 2 ragdolls i know of: my old roommate's, and my friends in australia.. both got lost. maybe i should get another breed. and andy is allergic to cats, i think i may try a siberian. they're supposed to be smarter, less allergenic, and have survived for 1000 years. and they come from russia. i am afraid to get another cat. if a cat can kill itself with a table, how can i protect it from everything? i cannot. but i can love it.

when i got caroso, i noticed i become more kissy. because i would cuddle him and kiss him all over. i was single then, not having a man i could hug when i needed one. but caroso was always there, and i would shower him with my kisses. and the contact with another being, of having my exisstence acknowledged by another being.. that was huge.

ps: also, it's rather awkward for me to talk about this in person, it's easier online, over text. but phone or in person conversations about this can be really awkward right now. so if you see me, just give me a hug.

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omega697
Apr. 25th, 2007 03:12 pm (UTC)
*hug*

I'm sorry :o(
bellatrixamici
Apr. 25th, 2007 03:19 pm (UTC)
I don't think it's unusual for you to want to get another cat. If I were in your position I would want to as well.


and now a letter I wrote in my head last night:

Dear Caroso,
Even though I only saw you a few times, you were my favorite cat. You were kind and soft, and seemed genuinely nice. I loved that you allowed people to hold you, even if it was just part of your breeding. Thanks for being a good friend to my friend Nadine. May you rest in peace.
Love,
Kaci
ripresa
Apr. 25th, 2007 03:25 pm (UTC)
awww.

thank you. that was very nice.
preservationgal
Apr. 25th, 2007 03:51 pm (UTC)
*hugs*
noxcat
Apr. 25th, 2007 03:57 pm (UTC)
The protocol is that you get a new cat when you're ready for one.

I haven't gotten a new cat since Nyssa died. But then, I already have two, so I'm not feeling the cat-shaped hole as bad as if I only had Nyssa.

Perhaps a short-haired cat would be easier on Andy's allergies? Abyssinians are pretty affectionate...
ripresa
Apr. 25th, 2007 04:19 pm (UTC)
yeah. i wish there was a cat around. i wish my roommate's cat would come home.

zuleikhajami
Apr. 25th, 2007 03:58 pm (UTC)
[quote]i'm not really sure what the protocol is on getting another cat after one just died. but i feel really cat-less right now.[/quote]

Eh, who cares what the protocol is. If you get a cat from a breeder, the process is going to take a bit anyway.
missdeekupps
Apr. 25th, 2007 04:10 pm (UTC)
If you are interested, I have a very sweet torti-tabby female cat that is already spayed, current on vaccinations, disease free and in need of a home. I already have three cats or I would keep her myself. Someone left her in the parking lot of my office complex and I have been looking for a mama for her ever since. She is very cuddly, sweet and docile. She is a lap cat and loves attention.
ripresa
Apr. 25th, 2007 04:18 pm (UTC)
thanks for sending me monkey's email. i wanted to ask him about his parents siberian cats that are supposed to be hypoallergenic.

also, thank you for the offer of the cat. i am in love with ragdolls and it feels wierd getting a non-ragdoll. if i go with a non-ragdoll, it would be a siberian because my boyfriend is allergic to cats.

even with that reason, i still find it hard to get a non-ragdoll.

i am sorry, i hope you find a happy home for your tabby.
andreay85
Apr. 25th, 2007 04:20 pm (UTC)
i'm so sorry. hug hug hug hug hug.
jonobie
Apr. 25th, 2007 04:31 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry to hear about Caroso.

I don't think there's a protocol for getting a new cat. When we lost Thalia, I wanted a new one almost immediately because the house felt so empty with only one cat instead of two. We ended up waiting because we were going on vacation soon and didn't want to bring in a new cat right before we left. But it was hard.

Not much else to say, but ... *hugs*

emaymcnicks
Apr. 25th, 2007 05:33 pm (UTC)
oh lady. i'm so sorry.

i didn't know.

may cat heaven be filled with balls of string and things situated just right for a cross-eyed cat to see with ease.

*hug*
orangepaisley
Apr. 25th, 2007 05:40 pm (UTC)
I am so sorry to hear about your cat. :-(

I'm allergic to kitties, but I was at an Esperanto party last year where the host (lj user="6opou") had his new Devon Rex kitten running about. For the first time EVER I had no adverse reactions.
nickjong
Apr. 25th, 2007 06:47 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. :-( And hey, Caroso was a member of your family, not "just a cat." Don't let anybody tell you differently!
grinnellian2001
Apr. 25th, 2007 07:26 pm (UTC)
*hugs*
I'm glad work is so understanding. You deserve time to grieve, especially since you had no time to adapt as you would have if Caroso had been ill.

There is no protocol for getting a new cat if your old one did not die of a disease. It's too bad you won't consider adopting a cat--there are so many that need good homes.
pewwy
Apr. 25th, 2007 07:36 pm (UTC)
*hug* Caroso was so well loved in life, and obviously still very much so. I'm sure he's smiling down from kitty heaven from this outpouring of support, for both him and his loving owner.
nekomouser
Apr. 25th, 2007 09:36 pm (UTC)
I am so sorry. I can only imagine how you feel. My feelings and thoughts are with you.
indywind
Apr. 26th, 2007 01:39 pm (UTC)
Can I recommend adopting rather than buying when you are ready for a new friend? If you really want a specific kind, they sometimes have purebreds that someone bought and then got tired of, or that were saved from abusive owners. It can be a very good feeling to give them a better life and more love than they would have had otherwise. Besides the humane society, there are breed rescue groups that specialize in different breeds. There might be a ragdoll or siberian rescue.

I hear some people are more allergic to the dried cat spit (from when he washes himself) than the hair or dander, so maybe you should look for a cat that doesn't lick much.

No cat will be a replacement for Caroso; I hope the fond memories soon overshadow the sadness of missing him.
::hugs::
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